Sunday, December 09, 2012

Day 9 Sunday! Que Sera Sera

Sunday 7:28 AM No Maid In sight yet. Toddler and the Man still sleeping. I cant sleep in because of the anxiety whether the maid will come or not. I had people over last night ,so there are tonnes of utensils waiting in the service area.

I saw Talash yesterday. I was disturbed slightly because of the loss of the kid due to an accident. I always picture myself in every situation and its harrowing. Its the worst thing to happen to a parent. My Aunt lost her 3 year old daughter to one such freak accident . It was devastating for her . But she moved on.I havent. I still miss my cousin a lot and each time I go to their home , I see all the pictures of the girl hung in the living room , I feel something from within me eating my insides.
 Why should this happen? Why should children die? Well, Yes, the argument can be that why should anyone die? At any age, you are going to leave behind people who are going to miss you.

One good lecture from the husband later, I decided to leave the thoughts behind and enjoy life at that moment. Again I told myself to stop seeing such movies. I should only see Disney Animations I think. I am still mentally under the PG group.

I left the toddler sleeping in granny's place  before going to the movies. She never asked for me after getting up . She loves her nani alright but mommy should mean something right. And to think I chucked my career for this one. LOL. She was happy to see me in the evening but no big hugs and kisses . She saw me ,gave me a huge smile and went about her business. I know she is just 2 and cannot really express her emotions. She is also never had the separation anxiety. She is a fiercly independent person in making. Its good for her. I again warned her saying,'Mumma is going away to work in January, then you'll know!'. She looked at me and laughed. Was that laugh sarcastic? 'Let us see,mom. You said that an year ago too'-seem to be the thought behind the laugh. :D

Yes I have rejected 3 offer letters till now. I am sure the offers will stop coming pretty soon . As it IT industry is brimming with talent and a reluctant mommy isnt always most sought out. Lets see.

Que Sera Sera. What shall be,shall be! 


10 comments:

  1. Why are u n sims doing this! Well i just finished watching 27 dresses dresses nd was all teary :))...no one shud die but then life is life.. Lets all cheer up!!! Its a beautiful day!!

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  2. Awww you are as much a softie as me... hugs mommy..:)

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  3. Tomorrow will be better and brighter happy post :D

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  4. Aww.... heartfelt post. Chuck those thoughts and get to that coloring book with the baby :)

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  5. Problems in life :) i like the que sera theme have you heard the version in french?

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  6. Arey why so sad on a sunday .. thoughts about kids not missing us - happens to all of us ;).. but believe me it's definitely better than the separation anxiety in the long run..

    And I haven't watched Talash yet (always late!), so a small spoiler warning before that para maybe for others like me :) ? Don't know if it's a spoiler even, but if at all there's any suspense involved there.

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  7. Awww I know nothing should ever happen to kids!! They deserve the best those innocent lil ones. Glad you hopped on to a cheerful post on Monday :) Love!!

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  8. @Aparna nope no spoiler there.. I knew it beforehand from the movie synopsis too

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  9. Phew! Ok then, sorry for bringing it up. I don't even read the synopsis if I can help it so wasn't sure.

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  10. Why sorry da? :) I will also be more careful next time .. to put a spoiler tag.. I always think I am the last one to catch a movie :P

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